My new oasis….aka the washateria

So I haven’t been to a washateria is like 5 years because we have always had a washer and dryer. Well in the new house we just moved into we don’t have washer dryer connections and had to put our washer and dryer in storage. So today I ventured my way to the closest washateria to my house. Its nice clean and huge. I even found a washer that holds up to eight loads of clothes at once so I only needed two washer. But I think this is something I will have to do alone because these kids are driving me batty already and the wash cycle isn’t even done. They have nothing to do and wanna spend money they don’t have on video games and crap out of the vending machines. I had a ton of clothes to wash today and that’s was only for a week!! I have a feeling the washateria and I are gonna be seeing each other at least twice a week. But I am thinking I can turn this semi negative into a positive. Besides my light bill being much smaller I can take this little bit of time to myself and bring a book and read. I think it’ll be good for me even though I hate lugging laundry to and from the car but its ok I need the exercise. So my new oasis and new “library” haha the washateria see ya later this week!!

Giving Thanks!

Giving Thanks!

I have seen where some people are taking everyday to say what they are thankful for. I decided to write it all up at once.

Day 1 - Thankful to have see another year!
Day 2 - Thankful for such a great mom! She is a phenomenal woman! She was always there when I needed her growing up. She went back to school and became a nurse. I am so proud of her for all she has done. I know I didn’t turn out the way she would have wanted but she’s always there for me! I love you Mom!
Day 3 - Thankful for a place to call home. I hope to soon, well one day own a home!
Day 4 - Thankful for my son, Deion. He is such a great kid! He is an excellent athlete and is great in math! He is also a great artist! He draws some awesome pictures! He is gonna grow up and make me proud I know it!! He is also a great big brother to his siblings, even if they fight a lot!
Day 5 - Thankful for D.J. our little professor!! He’s such a great reader and loves to learn. He also loves to write. Hes always writing me the cutest little stories!! I am hoping he’s gonna be a doctor or something, well probably not a doctor since he can’t the sight of blood but I know he will do something great with his life!
Day 6 - Thankful for Brayden, yes even his lil bad self! He certainly a handful but I just can’t help but love him! He’s the middle child and some people say they are always the troublemakers! He has calmed down a bit and I am sure when he’s in school he will be calmer! He loves to learn and loves music and dancing! He’s gonna be my break dancer, rapper!
Day 7 - Thankful for Mariah, my munchkin /mommy’s baby. She is the oldest of the twins, even if it only a few seconds. Yes they were born in the same minute but she surely takes on the role of Big sister! She’s the boss lady of all them! Daniel says she’s a lot like me, which is fine by me. That only means she not gonna take anyone’s crap and be able to take care of herself. She’s loves to color and play-doh. She says when she grows up she wants to be a construction worker so she can drive a crane! That’s my girl!! Don’t ask me why, but I think it hilarious!!!
Day 8 - Thankful for Marissa! She’s daddy’s baby and such a princess! She’s is the quiet more reserved one. She’s the quietest of all them but don’t let that fool ya, if you mess with her she will take matters into her own hands!! She’s gonna be a veterinarian, I am sure because she just loves animals. Every stray dog she sees she wants to take it home!
Day 9 - Believe it or not I am thankful for my husband. Yes, we have had some rough times but have had many, many great ones as well. He accepts me for the way I am even when I am being a royal bitch and yes I can be! He loves me no matter how fat I am, if I have my hair fixed or not, and has blessed me with four beautiful kids. Also, when we met Deion had just turned 3 and he taken on the role of Dad. He didn’t have to but he has and I am so thankful that he loves him like he’s his own. We have been together for 8 years and been married for almost 3 years. It hasn’t always been the best times but we have overcame everything so far. Everyone has problems in a relationship and a marriage takes work, and I am willing to work for my family and my husband.
Day 10 - Thankful for all the people who have or are serving in out armed forces. Without them, our country wouldn’t be the same. My dad was a Marine, he served his country and that makes me proud! I also have several people in my family who have or are currently serving in the United States Navy. Thank you to all for what you have done for this great country!!
Day 11- Thankful for Heather, we have been friends for 20 years! And even though we have had some rough times we always seem to work it out and get through it all! All the late night creeping, the trips to H-town and Cleveland, through 7 kids between us, many men, and some wild times we have managed to stay friends. I don’t know how she tolerates me but she does and I am thankful for her even though I don’t tell her enough! She’s a great friend and a great mom! I hope we are friends for the rest of our lives!
Day 12 - Thankful for this nice big comfy bed I am about to sleep in!! J
Day 13 - Thankful for my great friends! I have many friends in my life but only a few “true” friends. And although I don’t get to see them or talk to them as much I’d like they know I am here for them and they are there for me as well. And even if they live only a few miles away or several hundred I am still glad to be able to call them my friends!
Day 15 - Thankful for chocolate!! I don’t know who actually came up with chocolate(something for me to Google) but I am glad they did. Nothing makes your terrible day better like some great chocolate. Or makes your cold day warmer like some hot chocolate!! Thanks!
Day 16 - Thankful to be healthy, overweight but healthy!!
Day 17 - Thankful for my van. Yes it may seem like a hoopty, clunker to some, but its mine! I own it. It gets me where I need to go and back and that’s all that matter to me!!
Day 18- Thankful for air conditioning!! Living in TX its something to be grateful for!! Even if its 49 when you wake up, its hot as heck by noon!!
Day 19 - Thankful to have known my dad. I didn’t know him until I was sixteen . There were many times when we butted heads but that’s because we are both ornery and stubborn but we can’t help it, it’s the Campbell blood. He taught me many things to do and also things not to do. You never realize how much someone means to you til they are gone. I wish I had spent more time with him especially when he was sick so I could learned more about him. I am grateful to have known him and thankful to know I will see him again one day.
Day 20 - Thankful for a nice cold drink. Would love to have one right about now! So when we going out ladies??

Day 21- Thankful for good old music. I am a music lover as I listen to all kinds of music. You can always throw on some pop/hip hop and get your booty shaking!! Always a great stress reliever!! Or put on some Beethoven or Bach and relax. Always soothes me! Or when you’re feeling snazzy throw on some Marvin Gaye or Al Green. Or on those days when your feeling a lil different slap on some country or even some great rock n roll!! I love that I can listen to whatever music I am in the mood for that day!

Day 22- Weird as it may I am thankful to have the ability to walk and be as mobile as I can. I think sometimes we all take advantage of the smallest things and to me being able to walk and do as I please is such a great thing to be thankful for. I know I am not in the best shape but I am a work in progress!

Day 23- To day I am SO thankful to be in a safe home and finally be done moving!! Now to unpack all the boxes and get settles in!!

Day 24- Today I am thankful for my kids kindred spirits. We saw a group of homeless people today under an overpass and the kids were all asking questions. I mean its an almost everyday thing we see but today they asked questions. “How do they eat thanksgiving dinner,” and “ How do they stay warm?” I tried to explain but they all were interrupting me. Mariah says, can you make them dinner and bring it to them? I know they would love your food?” and Brayden says “we can bring them some blankets!” I am so surprised that they are so loving and unjudging. This year I am going to find somewhere to volunteer and see about them helping because I am want them generous hearts to continue to grow!

Day 25- Today is Thanksgiving and I am thankful for great family and friends to celebrate with. Had a great day and despite several people missing from the table this year we know they were there in spirit .

Day 26- Thankful for late night deals on Thanksgiving Day so I didn’t have to do Black Friday today!!

Day 27- Thankful for Christmas lights!! They are so pretty and cant wait to take the kids to look at them. Ssshh its really for me and them!! I love them!!

Day 28- Thankful for my mom’s husband, Danny. I am so glad my mom found someone that she can love and loves her back. He is a great guy and treats my mom so great. They are like two peas in a pod. They have been together for almost ten years and I have never seen them fight! I guess what they say is true the thirs times a charm!! **wink, wink** I really do think Danny is a great guy and glad he’s in mine and my mom’s life!!

Day 29- Thankful for all the great authors out there. I get lost in my book sometimes and wish I could read more. You can journey anywhere in a book without having to leave the sofa. I love television and movies as well but a book is just so much more. More detail and you can even feel more emotion in a book.

Day 30- Today the final day of November but I am going to give thanks everyday!! I am most thankful for life as chaotic and weird and wild as it may be I am thankful for it. I am not the greatest person in the world but I do love my life and would change some things in it but I am thankful for what I do have. Because I know, it could much worse than it is and things always get better and the only way they get better is if you, yourself make them better and I am trying. So I love it and if no one else likes it, tough!! Its my life and I love it!! J

What are dreams made of?

I haven’t been sleeping well if any lately and when I do dream I have had some weird and even some scary ones. I mean when you wake up screaming its bad. I wonder where are they coming from? Is it from me being stressed and causing my brain to react from the stress?
I have been dreaming about several things and there are few that I actually can remember. There is one where I am talking to my dad, who passed away in July. I hadn’t seen my dad in a while before he passed and now I am having dreams of him telling me, everything’s going to be ok? I am not sure if it’s a dream almost of guilt? I was going to go see him the night before he died but wasn’t able to because we had to rush back to Houston to check on my husband’s grandma who was admitted to the hospital because she had stopped breathing. I saw pictures of him at his memorial service and he didn’t look like my dad the past few months of his life but in my dream he looks like his same ole self. All I can remember is him telling me everything is going to be okay. I am wondering if its really him or my subconscious?
Another dream I keep having is not necessarily one dream that’s the same but several that are in the same category I guess you can say? Terrible dreams that cause me to wake up sobbing and sometimes screaming! Dreams about my children, and bad things happening to them. One a child has been kidnapped, another where one of my kids is severely hurt in a car crash, and another is where I somehow crash my car into a body of water and can‘t get all the kids out. I am wondering if these are also stress related? I have been under what seems like a ton of stress lately!! Or are these just mom dreams? Do other mom’s have these?? I have had some very vivid dreams in the past and most of them were when I was pregnant. And before you think it NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!!! I am not sure whats going on but I sure hope they stop soon so I can get some rest and be less stressed!

Downsizing: Our family update

Yes, you read it write we are moving, yes, we must be crazy, and no we don’t really want to but its just necessary. We moved here into this apt in July and now its almost December and we are moving out. This complex is terrible I will tell any and everyone I know not to move here. I knew moving into an apartment after being in a house for so long was going to be different but this is ridiculous!
I feel like a prisoner in my own home and sometimes I am scared to be in my own home. Things were good when we first moved in it was nice, we really had no neighbors and everything was good. Of course you know in August my van was almost stolen and the wonderful neighbors flooded my apartment was soon after. Now things have gone from bad to worse. There are currently at least eleven people living above me, yes I said eleven maybe more I have lost count. The office management don’t care. I get high almost everyday walking from my car to my door which is only like maybe 20 feet apart. Young teenagers smoking weed right in front of my door. I asked them move and not do that espically when my kids are right there. They are more the dysfunctional generation as I call them, no respect for anyone or anything. Yes I have contacted management and the police, they never come fast enough or when they do come the lil wanna be thugs take off running. Also the are always playing dice in front of people’s doors. Gambling leads to fighting, and this generation doesn’t fight with fists, they fight with guns and that’s dangerous for my family. I have tried to think of ways to manage to stay but I never feel safe and cant hardly sleep because I am worried about out safety. So we are breaking our lease and moving. We are moving into a much smaller HOUSE! We will have to place some stuff in storage but its ok for now. We are gonna save up and try to get a more permanent situation after the holidays. I am hoping this time next year we are planning to buy a house(hopefully in the country) so we can stop moving and be somewhere for good. And on a good note the new house is much closer to the kids school so that’s a great positive!
So if any of my great friends who are reading this wanna help, come on over Saturday morning and help us move!! LOL!